The Start of my Music Career

So, As I had mentioned in 2024 I decided to take the jump and switch my degree in school from Business Administration to Audio Engineering. Now this was switch for sure but I dont think it was a bad one. For a while I kind of just skated by barley passing and then something clicked. I realized i didn't want to put much effort into my everyday job any more. Frankly, I got to the point where I wanted to really just focus on my music and after a year of doing school I was finally learning how to make different sounds.

It has not been Easy

Between all of the life I have been living trying to learn another new skill on top of that was rough and I wasn't able to dedicate much time to it. There were many times I thought about quitting or that I wouldn't be able to pass. I just kept with it; now it still isnt easy. I struggle but I'm learning and now trying to take in everything I can. Pushing through even when I do want to is going to be the main thing because now that I have learned more I get way more excited.

Learning and Growth

After doing this for a year, I was thinking I still hadn't learned anything but that was the negative thinking coming in. I realized I did learn a lot more than I thought I had and I was not giving myself credit for that. I could log in and start where as before I would struggle doing that. I was continuing but I felt I wasn't growing at all but thats because I am always learning something new; so, of course it is always hard.

Keep Going

I think cntinuing to go is that hard part when I was not motivated because in my head I would say "There is no way I could make a living out of doing this." Or "It couldn't be me" I recently had taken a step and realized I was going to cause it not to be me. I decided to take a step back and rethink what I wanted out of life and realized. I started this because it is something I wanted and it is something I really like. I took a breath and refocused on everything I was doing and started to put my effort in.

Where Am I Now?

Well i made the decision to go all in into what I want. I am slowly learning and building new skills. This is probably stuff I should have done from the beginning but better late than never. I do enjoy learning new skills and I do believe all of what I am doing is going to help me get where I want to go. I am 100% sure I am going to look back at everything I am doing now and hate it. The point is that everyone has to start somewhere and this is my start.

My Feelings on Where I am at

I HATE it. You might be thinking "But you sound so hopeful or happy with what you're doing..." Uhh yeah I sound that way but its mainly hope. I hate learning, I hate feeling awkward, I hate the building. I want to blink and be there. But to get where I want to be I have to be here. So for now, I am going to deal with it and keep going.