A Update and Guide to How I am Surviving

You know, I have learned to embrace AI when it kind of comes to these things. Not because I like what it writes at all but it kind of helps me almost like a writing prompt. Kind of gives me something to start with but then put my own words to. Yeah I could just leave what the AI writes but then I feel like it really wouldn't be my own journey and what fun is that.

Maybe one day I will have to leave a couple of these that the AI writes and see which one does better, probably going to be the AI because well I am still learning what triggers search and good wording and what not.

That is not what this is supposed to be about I wet off on a tanget for sure. Sorry about that. Also, sorry I have written much lately, school has been A LOT got some classes that require a lot of work then. my whole household got sick. Not fun.

Here I am going to plug some shameless marketing because well I am trying to make a living from this whole side business stuff and I am an amazon associate so I make money from it(for how long idk because I have not actually sold anything. But here is what we have been using to survive sickness

Dayquil/nightquil- https://amzn.to/4jMtAGW

Gatorade- https://amzn.to/4aZIAPl

Kids Benedryl (dye free) - https://amzn.to/49Eo1FA

Water - https://amzn.to/3ZcoU3l any works but this is my favorite (evian)

Also LOTS and LOTS of rest

A winding forest trail symbolizing the journey of creating a personal path

Change of Direction

When I started writing this I had a whole idea to make it something empowering and special but instead I ended up with a whole couple paragraph about how I have been doing and you know now I am going to stick with it.

So what else has been going on you might be wondering, I keep trying to hold out and post stuff and keep creating even when I don't necessarily want to because sometimes I see how much work that goes into this kind of stuff. I don't jsut mean being online because I kind of feel liek no one is really going to pay attention to me ( although I now have 151 follows on tiktok, getting pretty famous) (I hope you know that was a joke) but really because this is something I do want to learn and get better at and frankly I don't think there is anyway to get better at it other than to just keep doing it.

I have been look at things to try and start doing actual videos you know liek. ring light, camera, updated work area. I have to keep reminding myself that I am not there yet and I need to chill. I do get super excited trying to work on editing more and more though.

What Have I found Difficult

So, I am not sure if most people do this, If you see this let me know, but I keep changing from thing to thing that I want to do. Like I'll find one thing interesting and start there but then I'll get bored and pick up something else and be like oh that is cool. I have to actually push myself to get back into the thing that I originally started. Like now, I started going to school for music production (got put into audio production but its cool too), then I wanted to learn video editing, now I am getting interested in coding and digital design. I have to push myself sometimes to get back into music, and yeah its good to have hobbies but sometimes I think this is just a problem.

I need to start trying to do more with music, I did start trying to do some self learning music theory. I also plan on pciking up a keyboard and a guitar again. I loved playing guitar so much but I stopped so long ago becasue I felt like I could never do anything practical with it. Yet here i am an adult learning to do something practical with music. This is honestly becoming liek a full circle moment.

What Else is Going on

So, also I worked up the courage to tell my supervisor at work that I don't really like the role I am in and that I want to switch departments. Thankfully, my management is really supportive and told me to find something I like and "go for it" meaning to apply for a different position and I did. So, I guess keep your fingers crossed for me that I can get it.

I am getting to the point in my current position that it really puts me in physical pain to be at my job right now. Frankly, I can say with 100% certainty that I am doing a disservice to myself and the company by staying in the position I am in right now. I applied for a position I should be much happier in.

I also changed my resume for that posting to see if it will get someone to actually look at it because I have been turned down before and I am wondering if its because of me or if it is because of my resume.

Bye for Now

I know this is has been way more of a chatty blod post than I wll thought out and excected one but it was nice to jsut sit and talk. I hope you enjoyed hanging out with me. Here is until next time. Stay safe out there